The scary truth behind being a writer

Hi guys,

I promised myself I was going to be consistent with this blog. Big shock- I haven’t been. But i’m here to try again!

I thought I would talk freely today about what publishing a book actually feels like. I have seen a lot online about imposter syndrome and the feeling of not belonging in the book community. But along with that there is also a feeling that is talked about less. The feeling of reading your book and feeling as though it isn’t good enough. That the words written on the pages need to be better, they need to carry more emotion. The constant fear that comes with putting something that you have poured your heart and soul into the big old world and it doesn’t have the effect you want it to.

The truth is not every book is a best seller.

Not every book gets millions of sales.

And that brings fear that yours won’t be one of the big ones. Your book won’t be sat in the window of a renowned bookstore. Your book won’t have praises sung about it on tiktok and plastered on the feed of everyones instagram. Your book won’t be one that you see a random stranger on the train reading.

But that isn’t the reason why we write and I think sometimes it’s hard to remember that because the need for success is so often pushed down our throats. We write because we enjoy it. We write because we have a story to share. We write because our story is important to US. The writer.

So while I hope Zakkariyah and Inayah (the characters in my book) see the world scream their names, it is more important that they exist and their story is coming to life for me. And that I wrote this book for the girl I was years ago, curled up in bed reading a book and wishing I saw characters that looked and sounded like me.

Anyway, thats my thought of the day!

See you guys tomorrow (I hope lol)